Sue, you definately shouldn't feel like a fraud... everyone is right, we try so hard for so long to have these little people in our lives, that we are almost waiting for the next speed bump in the road to take our dream away from us

I don't think pregnancy really kicked in for me until the day after DS was born! I got up out of bed for the 1st time after the c/s and while in there I thought "I have a real bubba out there" and actually had a little cry... probably due to the relief that he was physically here in our lives??

I didn't want to buy anything, then I would have moments when that was all I wanted to do.. I felt like I had spent years looking at little clothes in passing, toys, prams being pushed past me, and I think it was hard to get out of that frame of thought that it was actually going to happen. DH was the one who picked up the box with our change table and told me we were going to put it on layby...if he hadn't, I'd probably still be standing there umming and ahhing about it pmsl.

YAY for going out to buy a going home outfit too That is a big step, don't be hard on yourself about that one..