I am glad that I am not the only one who feels like this!

I am 13 weeks after falling from our 3 ART attempt and I am still feeling like something bad should happen. I have had 4 scans and it still doesn't seem really real.

I have been like someone else in here mentioned - I want to get organised and layby some things so that we can pay them off (we are financially stretched after IVF) and one of my questions will be if something goes wrong can we get our money back I have bought a few little outfits only cause DH suggested that we really should start getting organised. We have bought a portable cot only because it was the one that we wanted, was drastically reduced at xmas sales and because DH had to pick it up and put it in the trolley - all the way to the check out I was umming and arrhing about it. I keep thinking that we can always see the few things we have bought if anything happens.

We have still not told people and when we go to a family outing with cousins and uncles and aunties I still haven't said anything - DH keeps asking when I am going to say something and I keep putting it off. I guess I keep thinking that if we tell to many people I will jinx myself, something will happen and I will be embarrassed to have to tell peopel that no its not happening anymore. When people do ask if I am excited I feel sad and so no not really. I will just be happy when it arrives and its safe and healthy.

Glad I stumbled across this thread - glad it isn't just me!