He's sleeping now - just. Trying to muster the motivation to move him to the cot and get myself some lunch.

With regards to the PND index test thingy - I scored quite highly as well, but my doctor decided I didn't have PND, but I was just under a LOT of stress with various different life events. I suspect that I did actually have a mild case of it, but as I was already medicated for an anxiety disorder, all they would have down would have been increase the dose of the medication I was already taking. I do feel a lot better now, life has calmed down and I found it helped a lot to keep talking to people and keep focussed on the fact that everything I was feeling and experiencing was normal and that women before me had felt it, and women after me would feel it too. I think it does become especially hard after a long wait - without even realising it, parenthood can become something magical and the reality doesn't often live up to the dreams. Whose dreams included a screaming, puking baby that never sleeps? Simply having been through IVF does increase the chances that you will develop PND, but at this point I'd just keep an eye on things and not panic too much about it yet.

BW