LondonMiss glad all was the right size, I love the discription of a butterfly hope you enjoyed dinner. just read second post that is so beautiful.

Kryawolfe did you get the house? and thanks for all your kind words.

Smithy for a spew free day. and for you words

Airline great news on BT.

Murph thank you for your words, that's how I feel, I've even been questioning my mum at the birth the last few days for all those reasons about needing special time etc. My mum did say she'd clean my house for me before I go home and I'm really happy for that to happen. Hearing you talk about how it was for you makes me smile which I need today had a big hormanal cry last night, time to smile now.

ATM feeling much better today. Last night was a mess. DF is giving up smoking and is being an ASSS seriously a bear with a tooth ache etc. So when I phoned yesterday and we discussed MIL it was all good, I felt good and though few that's done and dusted WELL. DF decided to put in his own two bobs worth after saying I need to do what's right for me!

"March is ages away" I calmly explained that I wasn't comfortable that his relationship with her isn't always smooth and I'd be worring about that and not the baby. I also said that it would be so supportive to have someone around later on when all the visitors disapear etc. He didn't even take his eyes off the telly (mistake number one) so I asked if he was listening? well he snapped cracked it at me. I fell apart and cried for like two hours. Did I get a hug? no the only think I got was a very genuine (obviously he did take in my conversation) "you are right babe and if she isn't ok with that she doesn't have to come" well instead of being happy he saw the light I cried more. I mean why have an argument if you agree with me!

So lastnight he went to be and fell asleap and nothing has been said, He leaves at 5.30am and normally gives me a big cuddle and a kiss, well I only got two kisses on the forhead today. I couldn't go back to sleep so up I got.

I know my tears are hormonal and I know in the end it is up to me. But gease his timing for his own mood swings is awful, I feel like telling him to smoke! but I really want him to quit! good for him and the future, after all I am clubsy and I dont' need an oxygen lead all over the house. when I did age care I'd always step on them (not on purpose).

Anyways now I'm being silly. But I do feel like I've had a win, I am putting me and Squeak first.