BabySocks I know things seem tough right now but I just wanted to tell you that I think you've been AMAZINGLY strong with all the stuff you've got on your plate. It takes a lot of strength to leave a bad relationship especially dealing with all the confusing feelings AND having a baby to look after.

Don't rule out counselling just yet - you could take Aurelia with you maybe. I know that doesn't solve the problem of transport but could you get your parents to drive you? Failing that, perhaps see if there's any phone helplines you could ring just when you need a bit of support or just a kind voice to listen.