BearMum - congratulations on the birth of your beautiful son Jackson. I'm so sorry he died and your heart was broken like that. It's wonderful you were able to have the best birth you could in spite of his dying - it's a lovely way to honour your son and you as his mother. Hold close the memories and the love.

It's been nearly 13 weeks since my son died soon after birth (his story is in my sig). The grief will always be part of you and will change you in ways you can't predict. It gets easier to manage but it never goes away. You'll always be his mum and he will always be with you in your heart and soul. The love is overwhelming and it also never goes away.

I understand the platitudes don't help and can sometimes be upsetting. Try not to take it personally, people just don't know what to say. Some days you'll feel stronger than others and be able to handle then better.

I hope you're able to find support on BB and that you and your DH and family have lots of love and support IRL.

If you ever need someone to talk to, let me know.