Tash- yes the arranging of the funeral is just blurg!
The funeral feels like we're introducing Jackson to the world at the same time as saying goodbye.

We also plan on having big framed photoes of Jackson and an album for people to see him, and realise that yep, we had a big beautiful baby boy.

Tash- I read your birth story, what a birthing goddess! Such an amazing experience, so sorry for how it ended for you.
And yeah- even though I spent 9 months obssessed with reading and learning everything possible about birth, meditating etc, the amount of pushing required was shocking! And being told that I wasn't pushing hard enough when it felt like even my little finger was pushing! I just had to figure out the right direction to push in, how weird, you'd think it would be obvious! What amazing bodies we have.
Birth rocks! Pity our endings sucked.
You've inspired me to take the time to write out all the details of Jacksons birth properly, before I forget! I relate to a lot of your story- I also had planned a home water birth, and had done a lot of preparation for a natural birth. I also had SPD from about 14 weeks, not much fun is it?
Anyway, thanks. xx