Hi guys,

Sorry, a selfish post from me today. I tested last night and got a clear BFP (and I had just peed two hours earlier, so wasn't expecting such a dark line). So I have had the BT this morning and am now in the agonising wait for results. I am not even slightly happy or excited; just scared out of my mind. I wish I could be happy, but with my past experince, my brain is telling me that it will only end in heartbreak, and I don't know how much more I can take. I will let you all know what they say when they phone me this afternoon. Part of me is thinking they will say I am not pg at all, or else the levels aren't good enough to sustain it. I shouldn't be worried really. If it doesn't work out, then we just try again, but I am just need a break right now or I think I am going to go nuts.