Nicole - HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I hope you enjoy your birthday. Even though what you're feeling is natural, you're not a failure. I'm sure you done loads of stuff that you never planned to do by 30. Maybe try to appreciate those things and all the people who love you.
But I know its easier said than done. I turned 30 last month, and felt like this was the first big thing I'd failed at (except for English in year 7!).
Satya & Claireabel - Belated good luck for the tests. How'd you go?!?! Shellbell & Lee - Wish I could speed up you TWWs Nikilove - it must be a tough month for you. Have you passed the EDD? please feel free to express your feelings here. You'll get loads of support and no judgement whatsoever.
Welcome Sandie. I'm sorry for your loss. Feel free to express your feelings & vent here. Everyone here is lovely, and you can take all the time & space you need here. Shoegal - LOL! You can post here even if you're not ttc yet. No one's going to dob you in to your doc. I'm glad you're in a better place though. The first few weeks are really hard. But it does get easier, and I admire your braveness.
Salt - sweetheart I hate to see you down. I know exactly what you mean though. I have images that flash before me that torture me. Immeasurably happy ones and inexpressibly miserable ones. You're right its not fair. Don't you just sometimes want to drop to the floor and chuck a tantrum?
But I know its going to work out for you. I do hope you start feeling more positive. Has AF stopped for you yet?
Bun - Thanks for the advice (re reminding yourself of the positives of not being pg). That really helped me today. I was convinced AF was coming cos I had a headache & cramps.
Wow a holiday in Spain & Paris sounds like a great positive! Hey, you're going to be in my neck of the woods, are you coming to London at all?
"maybe your baby will be conceived in the city of love?". And if its a girl, you can call her Paris! Oh wait, you probably don't want to be mum to a slapper
Me? I've given way to peer pressure and am going to test either tonight or tomorrow morning. Either way it will be good news. If its a BFP, obviously I'll be ecsatic (and I'll be going home). If its a BFN, I am going to open the giant cider in the fride, make a brie, tomato & basil salad and eat an entire jar of potted meat. Then I will plan something that pg ppl cannot do like skydiving (though knowing me, it'll be to do with eating).
To get it out of the way first..... after much agonising over testing I did test this morning and of course it was a BFN. My temp was down .1 this morning but because its been up and down while I've had the cold I don't know if I should trust my temps at all. I still have the cold.... slightly. I only had 1 bathroom trip overnight but in total I had 17 trips in 24 hours (20 the previous 24 hours). My bbs seem a little tender but sometimes they are B4 AF anyway. I only tested so early as last cycle was a 24 day one. Had heartburn again yesterday. Still no skin break out. No spotting yet. I normally get it for several days before AF so it should happen any minute. Don't know what to think.
Nikilove- You aren't cutting in. Everyone is welcome here.
Salt- Sorry you've been feeling so down. I hope your mood is better today.
Sandie - Sorry for your loss. I hope your stay in this thread is a short one.
Shellbell - The BB addiction is pretty bad isn't it. I try to sneak on after my DF goes to work in the morning as he doesn't like me being on here. He doesn't think it helps me but it really does. He doesn't want to hear about symptoms or lack of them.... people in here understand.
Timnik I hope you have a great day. I took turning 30 really hard.... far worse than turning 40 turned out to be. I felt a failure for not having had a child even though I had told myself I wouldn't have any kids til after 30. I had been ttc for 2 years when I turned 30. My mother was seriously worried about me so I must have been pretty bad. Turning 40 was a breeze. I got engaged on the day (and he was younger than me), I was in my brand new house and I had a 3 yo step daughter, my life had done a full turnaround.
Pash - good luck with the test. Hope it goes better than mine did. I'm glad to see you've got some plans for celebrating if it's negative - that's a great way of doing things.
Bun - good on you for not getting the test done. I hope they don't hassle you too much about it.
Sorry to anyone I've missed. Will be back on later as I finish work at lunch time today and don't have to go back til Tuesday YAAAAAAYYYYYY!!!!!!!
Claireabel - How did the test go?
Lee - your positivity is infectious - just what I needed after getting my BFN.
Hi Claireabel,
You must have posted while I was doing my longwinded one. Congratulations on the Sending you lots of . Keep us updated on the BT results.
Well, I tested tonight and got a !! DH & I are still in shock and a bit scared. I wish I could go to my GP in Sydney & get bloods done. The medical centre here does nothing when you show up pg. Last time, they just gave me some washing detergent & other advertising and that was literally all they did to me. Not even a HPT. I always digress (whinge)... I really hope this one sticks.
Satya - I'm sorry to hear your test didn't go so well But still it was pretty early, maybe you're in a longer LP this month, and are still in with a chance. If not, at least you have a few days off work. Try & do something fabulous to cheer yourself up.
Clairabel - Congratulations!!
Hi everyone else & thanks for all the kind wishes.
Salt - thanks for your support. I have just hung up on DH because he asked what was wrong and I said I have to have the BT and he said 'oh, that's all'. He's not the one who has to sit here all day trying to work and waiting for results, he's not the one who has to go through the pain of m/c, and the fear of another one. I wish he could be just a little understanding sometimes, I am so over this process. How am I supposed to keep my stress levels down when I have all this pressure on me all the time? I was doing so well, but all this interference just stresses me out, and I still don't see how it could actually help me. I am on ADs as I was just not coping after the second m/c, and I seriously struggled at work for a long time. I still do, but I was just starting to get some focus back. I will have to do a HPT tonight, then if it's a BFN, I have nothing to stress about, and if it's a BFP, at least I know, and just have to wait to get my hormone level results to see if it could actually be a viable pregnancy for once. I won't sleep if I wait to test in the morning, so it will have to be tonight. I do have pg symptoms - sore boobs, creamy CM and I have been feeling a bit off and my skin is atrocious - the worst I have seen it. But it could just be AF symptoms, esp as the clomid could mess things around a bit.
Satya - How are you feeling now? Hope that cold has well and truly gone! I'm so sorry for your BFN hun *hugs*.
Timnik - I've doing a Clomid cycle now (did 6 ttc DS and 3 early in 2005), and yes, you do need to wait for full flow to start (full flow is considered CD1). Good luck for this cycle! Oh, and Happy belated birthday to you!!
Salt - Sorry about your dreams and your bad day, hope you are feeling a little better now. Those preconception capsules sound like a great idea, let me know how you go! DH is taking zinc at the moment (just incase our last 2 embryo's don't work).
Sandie - So sorry for your loss DS took us nearly 3 years and fertility assited and we are coming up to 3 years for ttc #2. It is hard and to finally fall pregnant and miscarry is heartbreaking. Good luck, hope your next cycle brings you lots of luck.
Bun - Ooooh, you're going to Paris! You lucky thing, my Dream destination!!! Sounds like a wonderful holiday! Just wanted to send you some big hugs too, I understand why you must be terrified, hoping and the next one sticks.
Claireable - Congrats on your BFP Wishing you a H&H 8 months!
Pash - congrats on your BFP too Wow, a few BFP's...hoping it rubs off on everyone else!!
Think it's time one of the longer term members here get one...sending you all sticky vibes girls!
Lee - Not too long to go now until you test! How are you feeling today?
Sharon - Hoping that the temp spike is in fact a positive sign! Not long until your appointment now either, hope you get that BFP before hand!
Leyla - I hope you get your O soon, good luck hun.
Hi to anyone I may have missed.
I'm off for embryo transfer at 11.30am this morning, very excited to have gotten this far and that the embryo has survived the thaw (which is always the one thing I fear most at an FET - having it taken away before even getting a chance). I'm feeling really positive, eating well, drinking lots (Oh....when do I stop the pineapple juice?????????). We are also moving this weekend, so have been frantically packing and cleaning as DH does not want me doing anything to strenuous over the weekend, so mum and dad are coming down to help. Hopefully the move will make the first week of the 2WW go nice and quick, DH is on holidays all next week so we'll try and keep nice and busy!
Good luck to those testing in the next day or two, will check in over the weekend!
I hate to see you down. I know exactly what you mean though. I have images that flash before me that torture me. Immeasurably happy ones and inexpressibly miserable ones. You're right its not fair. Don't you just sometimes want to drop to the floor and chuck a tantrum?
Sending you lots of 
. Keep us updated on the BT results.
to you all.
Hi everyone,
DS took us nearly 3 years and fertility assited and we are coming up to 3 years for ttc #2. It is hard and to finally fall pregnant and miscarry is heartbreaking. Good luck, hope your next cycle brings you lots of luck.
the next one sticks.
Wow, a few BFP's...hoping it rubs off on everyone else!! 
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