Hi All
I have been off line feeling VERY sorry for myself for the last couple of days and have almost caught up with all the news.
Ruthie - I totally get what you mean about people saying ridiculous things. People keep saying "at least you know you can get pregnant" and I turned to my girlfriend the other day and said NO - At MOST I know can get pg! Honestly when people start a sentence with "at least" and then go on to tell you about someone else who had a "worse" experience I want to scream. That and the ones that start "I know someone"...no false hope please. - Rant over, Hugs to you honey.
Hannah - taking all of what I just said and forgiving everyone who says it because who the hell knows what to say to people in pain. You are right I cringe at some of the things I must have said to people in the past. I have been thinking a lot about you honey and sending you much love.
Tam - fingers crossed all is well for you and DH - but even getting some answers will hopefully give you something to work with.
Emmykate - I had a girlfriend (we are no longer friends) who smoked and drank happily through her two pregnancies and was delighted her babies were underweight - there is seriously no justice sometimes.
Louise - Welcome and so sorry to hear of your loss. I think stunned is the best word to describe how I felt. Just horrified and lots of shouting WHY at the world. Darling we are all here to support you.
Joey - wonderful news - everytime I see a BFP I think oh yeah that's going to be me soon. Well done sweetheart!

AFM - going to my first counselling session on Thursday as I am not coping as well as I thought. Had a big meltdown b4 DP and I went out for dinner as a shirt I had bought didn't fit right as my bbs have shrunk so much and I could not believe how angry I got with DP. I realised that I was so angry at my body for letting me down and I was not dealing with it effectively. I have also been asked to come back to work but that will mean being in Bris with DP in Syds. I get so mad as when I was pg I knew the role I had and did not mind not working - now I am consumed by my uselessness. I don't really want to do anything and need to get myself motivated. I am going to Gwinganna on Sunday for a 5 day wellness retreat so here's hoping it sorts me out.
Love to you all - sorry if I have missed anyone
Adele