Adele i hope you have a relaxing time at the wellness retreat on the weekend. I think you must be such a strong woman to be doing as well as you are considering what you have been through. I am sure your partner is supportive and understands your emotions/rage/irrational thoughts. When you go through something so emotionally devastating it is definitely going to change the dynamic of your relationship and put extra pressure on you for a little while. You have to keep yourself at number 1.. and really focus on your own health and do what you need to do to keep sane. Everyone gets angry/upset/depressed when they suffer a horrible loss.

I keep saying time is the only means to heal these scars... by God i wished someone would fast foward the clock Healing is so much easier said than done. Take care and stay strong. Your strength and determination are demonstrated just by your countless posts and warm wishes to others. You are an inspiration. Good things will come to those who wait... even if we have experienced the bad things first. At least we do not wait alone.... all of us on this forum are waiting together.