Milla - I'm so sorry you're having a hard time right now. I haven't been to see a therapist. DH suggested we go and see one together but we never got around to making an appointment. I struggled for a while after my m/c which was also my first pregnancy. I wasn't prepared for the bond that formed the minute I discovered I was pregnant. I didn't even realise how strong that bond was until I lost my baby. I struggled for a while trying to understand how I could feel such overwhelming grief for something so small that had been in my life for such a short time. After coming on this site and chatting with some of girls, I realised that I needed to let myself feel whatever I felt. Once I gave myself permission to feel like crap, I was then able to be more honest about my feelings with the people around me. If people at work or at home asked me how I felt, then I told them I was having a bad day. And you know what? They were actually okay with that. Then I knew that I had people around me to support me, so I didn't have to be strong for anyone.

Sorry, I've started rambling. In short, let yourself feel whatever you feel. And don't ever think your grief is any less than anyone else's on this site (another mistake I made which only made things more difficult). Also, you're life is now different. And you are different. Looking to get things back to what they were is just another struggle. I found that once I stopped fighting it so much, the fog that angel talked about started to lift. Not immediately, but gradually it happened.

These are all things I realised after coming onto this site. But, on the other hand, speaking to someone can't hurt either. You can always go once and see how you feel afterwards.