Salt - I felt a tiny bit crampy, and had a few "twinges", which felt like movement in the uterus area, before my +tive. I'm for you this cycle, it seems to have come around quickly this time!

Claireabel - thanks, I did get some counselling, which to be honest I found not so useful. I didn't get much out of being told "take one day at a time" and "some things just happen". I know that sounds a bit cynical. I'm a fairly spiritual person, but even that side of me has been tested to the extreme. I know my grief is something I have to live with, and I also know that the only way to survive it is to live well, to live a fantastic life - to live the life my son cannot I owe him this. Still, it's a huge amount of sadness to live with, and I sort of cram it into tight spots wherever I can. I've decided to steer clear of negative people in my life too, no room for them!! Hope your scan goes well, it'll be so nice for you to see that little bubs heartbeat!!

Lee xo