Bun~ I completely understand your fears because I cringe just thinking about how I will cope when I get pregnant again. I think about seeing that double line adn I know that I will want to jump for joy and cry out of fear all at once. But please you have to be more positive! When your little bundle of joy is here you are going to look back and wish you wouldn't have been so stressed during your pregnancy. And you don't sound unappreciative at all, its completely understandable. Hang in there.