Oh Jen, what you have described in ur post is all too familiar to me and I'm sure there would be others here that relate too. Having ur hands on ur tummy in bed and wishing that ur baby was still there is particularly memorable. Even in the months after while TTC I would put my hands on my tummy whilst in bed and focus so that my will was strong enough to put a baby in there. When I had my first m/c which was picked up at u/s i had to wait a day before i could have the D&C. That evening I just didn't want anyone taking my babies (twins) out of there cos I simply wanted to protect them in my own body even tho I knew they were dead. The cruelest thing too was that I was still getting m/s that evening - the sign that I usually attribute to a healthy pg. I can relate to ur sideshow (that is an excellent way to describe it!) and half listening to people. I feel for you for the range of emotions that come out while at ur DS's school - I don't have any helpful tips there nor with the FF fertility days. All I can suggest to you is to try to be strong and have faith that u will be pg again. I always think of my mum's favourite saying at times likes these and it does help me - "the personal success is how we deal with grace and dignity the atrocities of life" - hope it helps you in some way. Hugs hun.

Canary - hun we do need a BFP in here!! I had no pg symptoms whatsoever when I found out I was pg with DS - so for you it aint over til it's over!! If AF does come (I so pray it doesn't) then u will be only a couple of days behind me - we'll have some cyber wine together and drink to the BFPs we'll get next cycle - deal?

Natty - you are being so positive right now - that's so fantastic - good for you!!! The power of talking to your bub would be helping ur little one so much - keep it up!!

Hello and good morning to everyone else -