plc1805--Thanks so much for your post--just the fact that someone else knows exactly what I mean helps so much! Losing one was so hard, my heart breaks for you that you lost two at the same time! I can't even imagine, and almost feel stupid for complaining about my loss when yours (and so many others) had to have been so much harder to deal with! I've been feeling so lonely--DF and kids help somewhat, but they just don't know what to do or say around me. It's like everyone is walking on egg shells. I feel like I'm always 1/2 a second away from breaking down. Then I feel like it's been a month, so it should be getting easier--yet at times it just feels like I'm regressing. I truly don't feel like I'll be happy again until I get that BFP! Trying to stay strong and have faith is so hard when the slideshow just keeps going.... Thanks again for your post--everyone's posts are the only things keeping me sane right now!

tempus--I, too, tend to withdraw during these times. I just don't know what to do or say, or even how to act! Just can't seem to keep my emotions under wrap. I know I'm alive, because I'm breathing and moving, but inside I feel completely dead and just at a loss... It's amazing how everyone here makes me feel somewhat "normal", and much less selfish than I let myself feel. Thanks so much for your post!

Emmy-Lou--Thanks for the positive affirmation! I'm not kidding when I say that this forum is my saving grace!

JMG--Hope your signs are those of a BFP! Keep up the positive thoughts!

Canary--Thanks so much for understanding! Despite everything we've all been through, I have to think that things happen for a reason, and we've all been brought together by the grace of God to help each other through these tough times!

Laura--Congrats on the BFP! I truly hope this is the month for you! Good luck tomorrow at your appt! Wishing you a healthy, happy pg!