I go away on Holidays, come back and there are new people in here........ I dont want new people in here..... I want this thread to be empty one day..... I DONT WANT ANOTHER PERSON TO KNOW THE PAIN WE KNOW!

To everyone new in here..... WELCOME WELCOME WELCOME.... but I wish you wernt here. Every single person in here knows far to well your pain and for many of us its a wound that is still fresh and painful every day. But here I go again, I m going to sound like a broken record to those that have been here a while. ONE DAY AT A TIME! and very importantly.....Look after YOU! dont try and do everything you think others think you should be doing. Allow yourself to greive. Allow yourself to take it all ONE DAY AT A TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Once again, you are all welcome to click on the link below, Angel Babies, I made the web site to firstly honour my angel babies and in the hope that it makes it just a tiny bit easier for the next person who has to face the loss of their baby. there are some beautiful songs, video clips and poems. You are all more than welcome to look through it and I hope it helps.

Now as for personals... Goodness this is going to take a while.

ll80..... not only did I beat AF up with her broomstick I swore at her too..... big made up swear words.... big like you ve never seen before. I m talkin HUGE. Fingers crossed for DH..... bet you ll be glad to get him out of the house

Natty, fiona, jodsan..... far far far to many new members of our family in here. I know your not new new but i still wish you wernt here.

Katiegirl.... good to see a familiar face that is carrying the torch of good news.... huge hugs hun.

mmteacher... Ohhh I just hate seeing so many names in here.

berecca623... you stick it to them girl......LOL..... of course you were right.

Jen, prayingandhoping, tina..... Ohh seriously..... There are just to many people who have had to join us in the last few weeks.

Magda....pee away I say girl...... AF was due for me last Saturday. From Friday onwards I was peein and peein and peein..... goodness we talk some lovely stuff dont we...... anywayyyy Friday I POAS BFN.... Saturday I POAS BFN Sunday I POAS BFN Monday I woke up at 2.15am i was that sure.... POAS BFN.... Then about 6 hours later.... knock knock on the door.... Good Morning Aunty Flow.... so GLAD to see you .... my theory... who cares if you POAS....if it works for you then it works for you and thats all that matters.

plc1805.... Birthday Buddy.... huge hugs.... missed you. more details girlfriend.. what have you been up to... I saw you come in and check up on me in the 2WW.... I spyed you.... thank you... huge hugs .... I ve got them keepin the seat in the corner warm for me.

Betty Boop.... getting to the point where you and I have been around for a while now.... starting to feel old and not just in age.

AJC... Huge hugs to you too Now whats this about a bit of chuck chuck... hmmm waiting for more information....


Now Nickster and Starrysky.... I know your both out there somewhere...... HUGE HUGE Hugs to you both.

Well as for me... goodness. I think DH and I are going to take a little break. If we dont take a break from TCC then I think it will end up being taking a break from each other. Its not him, its me. Everything was being expected of me and when you give its great but when you dont recieve its not so good. Sometimes you just have to put your foot down and say no. No i dont deserve to be treated this way, no i will not put up with it and no you have absolutely no right to do it. So i be basically said that we have a relationship to work on before we can consider bringing a child into that relationship. Now I know to well that our current issues are a result of what we have been through with IVF and then the loss of our angels and now a road of TCC that seems to not end. So we are getting back to basics and concentrating on each other. We even sat there tonight and watched our wedding DVD together to see how far removed we currently are from that. I love him, I love him dearly but I love myself just as much and sometimes you just have to say NO. People will treat you how you ALLOW them to treat you.

So its not sad faces, its a smile... a smile that I might be able to fix my realationship with my husband so that we can conceive a child into a family of strong love.

Having said that, I ll still be popping in to see you all, goodness... i couldnt stay away on my 8 day holiday....

GROUP HUG