firstly ...
I still don't have my AF. Not sure if nature is gonna play a cruel joke and just come late or if i am possible preg and it is too early to show on a test. I could'nt wait and did another Friday which showed a fat neg again so now i am waiting until next fri to test again unless AF pays me another visit. Although if anything happens in the meantime i'll do the drive to mum and dads to jump on their computer and let you all know! DH has'nt picked up on it being late yet, he just wants to DTD, he is having major withdrawal while we are at our friends! MEN! (sorry if TMI... !!!)
Katie - God, i had to re-read your post! I'm not sure what to say about what your brother said, i really can't believe it was said at all. i really hope he does understand the impact his words have had on you but i do hope also you can push through it and focus on what you need to at this time which is you and DH. And i am quite like Simba in that I sometimes find myself saying our baby died and maybe thinking about it it is why people freak out so much and either say the wrong things or nothing at all and i'm not sure what i would prefer! But nonetheless i think it is important for people to know what we lost! So whatever! I am sending you lots of love and many hugs right now as i don't know how i would cope with all that you are. i wish that i had seen your message earlier (again, no house, no computer..hmm...) but i'm not sure what i might have been able to say anyway. Just maybe to send you some cyber hugs and hope that you are ok! I am really happy your OB appointment went so well and he sounds as though he will be amazingly supportive so i think you can put alot of trust in him. I know what you feel like in wanting to get into TTC but see what he says. he sounds so thorough and i love that he will see you so often. i'm not sure what my OB will do in terms of that but i hope he will do similar. I really hope so...i don't think you'll be sick of seeing him! Maybe the other way around! ha ha!
Simba - I too get the "you look so great" comments, i got them so soon after Jack died also by family and work when at the time i could'nt really give a #%@! what i looked like - i did'nt even want to get out of bed! I actually lost a few extra kilos that i did'nt want to because i was'nt sleeping and people were saying how awesome that was also regardless of the stress i was under for it to happen. But for the first time I have a mini jelly belly that i am wearing now with pride.i actually had a customer complain the other day how big she was after the birth of her daughter (she was a size 16) and how much stretch marks she had and told me don't ever have kids, this is what they do to you. I just walked out of the fitting room and ignored her essentially. WHOOPS! But i was like i would take all of that to have jack safely back in my belly!
TM - i hope you are doing ok, i cannot believe all that you are dealing with right now. I hope some positive news comes your way soon in amongst all of this!
barbara - i hope your ok too! You have'nt been on..hope its just because you have been so busy!
take care everyone!
love to all of you!!!!
xxxx jo