Hi all. Just a quick one from me as we are heading out for breakfast.

Lan - telling us that you feel angry with the world is not being selfish..it is being honest. I felt incredibly angry after Nathaniel, angry with everyone from my ob, my family and God. It is a very natural part of grieving. I was angry that DH could fall asleep at night whilst I sat there crying and feeling empty. You only lost Hamish in April, so don't feel that you should be 'better' by now. If you want to cry or scream just do it. Have you spoken to a counsellor? I can really recommend SIDS and Kids as they offer a free service and will come to your home. My counsellor lost a baby years ago, but it means she understands the total devastation. Also they offer parent supporters who are people who have gone through a similar loss (I did not use this but it might be a good option). They also run support groups and the one you would be best with is called Hope and Healing. Both DH and I found this to be extremely cathartic (and emotional). Just talking about Nathaniel and how our lives had been affected, actually aided both of us in our healing. I still have bad days and still cry, but I know it is because I will always love my little boy. Be kind to yourself! And congrats on finally confirming the sale of your unit. You have a busy couple of months ahead - moving house and commencing TTC...it will be wonderful!

Okay that is enough from me. I also wanted to thank you all for being so supportive and excited for me. I get such a buzz when I read your messages and I can feel the excitement! It has really helped me accept that I really am almost there and that this little girl has as good a chance as anyone. So thank you, thank you, thank you. After all you have been through, all the heartbreak and hurt, you can still show genuine concern and hope for another person, it is very special. I hope I can continue to offer the same support in return.