Laney - I totally understand your feelings towards your SIL. It bothers me when other women complain about being too big, weight gain etc. I just feel like everyone should be thankful that they have made it that far into their pregnancies. I am so happy to hear that your tests are continuing to get stronger. I hope all goes well with your Ob tomorrow and you get some good direction moving forward with this pregnancy. Of course you keep hope alive that you will get your healthy baby - that is what a parent does. They always hope for the best.

Cindee - sorry you also had to hear ignorant comments. If only people knew our stories before they opened their mouths!

Well DH was getting all excited last night about having the carseat fitted this Friday and I broke down. We bought the seat on sale last year only a week or so before we found out about Nathaniel. I remember waking up from a nap to find DH playing with the seat (even though I had said to leave it in the box) and he was so excited and talking nonstop about our baby. That memory last night came back with a thud and I broke down. In fact just typing it now has made me cry again. He had the most beautiful look on his face, full of hope and excitement. I hate that beautiful memories from our first pregnancy now remind me of all we lost - our baby, our innocence and our naivete. I suppose as I move closer to 40 weeks, I should expect to have these kinds of moments when my heart breaks all over again at the idea that I will not get to raise all of my children. I just miss Nathaniel so much. I am getting that seat fitted on Friday, how embarrassing if I was to start crying! I am sure that won't happen, but hey you can never predict these things.