First and foremost – HAPPY BIRTHDAY TENIBEAR!!! It’s still the 9th here in the states but I think you’re already onto the 10th where you are (or are you onto the 11th and I missed it?). Hope you have (had) a great day. My fingers are still crossed for you for June!! Did you test today? Also big raspberry to your cousin!
Dory – Thanks for the encouragement. I am looking at Dr. Joanne Kwak-Kim at the Chicago School of Medicine (RFU). She worked closely with Dr. Beer during his time in Chicago prior to his starting a private clinic in California. Her philosophies and treatment strategies are comparable to Dr. Beers and it is much closer to us than California. BTW, I read the Beer book you recommended and it is really great. Thanks for the turning me on to that! Hope you, DH, and all the furbabies are doing well.
Crumpet – Glad to hear the results of the scan were normal, even though the journey was eventful! I’ll be thinking of you and hoping that your procedure goes well. I’m also sorry to hear that DH is sad and that it is so hard for you to envision a positive outcome. After so many early losses, the sight of a BFP is enough to make me cry and start the grieving process almost immediately. We must still have some hope, though since we still keep trying. DH and I did much better this last time around in terms of embracing the baby and trying to be happy for every moment we had until we lost our angel. I like the idea of a 3D scan. It gives you a little more to hold on to.
Powelly – I know what you mean about being afraid to fall pregnant. We lost all of ours at 5 weeks so for me, that BFP usually brings fear and dread. I’m afraid to love the baby. I’m afraid not to love the baby. It’s almost like I’m afraid that either wanting it too much or not enough will make me lose the baby. I think Dory and many others here have said it numerous times – one day at a time, be grateful for every moment for however long it lasts. Hopefully I can be as strong for our next BFP.
Gigi – LOL, I’ll have to remember that joke! I do have a great GP and endocrinologist, so I know there are good doctors out there, but I have unfortunately been to some real doozies. Also – props for having the guts to whack your hair. I usually have waist-length hair, but occasionally get fed up and get it cut short. I then instantly regret it (you’re right, it’s way more work than long hair) and start re-growing. I’m glad you still love it.
SusieQ – Hope you are doing OK, hun. Chicken pox?! You’re just having all the fun!
Hi also to CharliB, Hope, Angelic, Chez, Samcougar, Lemonade, Cmegles and anyone else I may have missed. Hope you are all doing well and that we hear from you soon.
AFM – I was being kind to DH last Sat and mowed our backyard – that is until I hit a yellow jacket nest in the ground. Did I mention that I’m allergic to wasp stings? So I’m stung multiple times, racing at top speed from the yard to our kitchen door, and completely freaking out. I’m yelling for DH at the top of my lungs, in excruciating pain, and flinging items at random out of our freezer until I find a suitable cold pack (peas). DH FINALLY makes it downstairs from the office and tells me that I should really tell him what the matter is when I call for him so that he will know whether or not it is an emergency. Now really… the whole screaming incoherently at the top of my lungs didn’t tip you off? I didn’t actually think I was being that subtle. To top it all off, my epi-pen was completely buried in our kitchen junk drawer and when we finally found it…. it was expired by 4 years. Thank God I didn’t need it, although I did swell up pretty spectacularly. I’ve been on steroids for four days now and the swelling has finally just gone down (although I’m still a bit itchy and have some hives). On the bright side, I now have a ready-made excuse for why I can no longer mow the lawn!
Hugs, baby dust, and sticky vibes to everyone! xoxo
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