Bailey - that support group sounds a little strange, doesn't it. Let me know how you go.

Jo - you should be so proud of your little girl. She is just adorable. She is so right, that Nicholas looks like a sleeping baby - a gorgeous one.

We are always second guessing decisions we have made. I think we have to remember that a lot of these decisions are made at a time where we are really not in the right state of mind, mostly in shock. I know I have at some stages over the past 2 months regretted some of the decisions I made, but I have realised (with the help of Mel - thanks ) that we think these are the right decisions at that time.

I am so grateful that I was given the chance to hold and kiss my little angel and spend as much time as I wanted with him. DH and I made the decision that we would be the only ones to hold and see Cooper. To this day I feel some sort of regret that I didn't allow my parents and DH's parents to meet their first grandchild. This has been taken away from them and can never be given back. They all understand that it was our decision and they accept that but I think that deep down they would have loved to have met their grandson.

Bailey - you have your precious photos of your angel and you can look at them as much as you want to. I have photos of Cooper and look at them all the time.

Mel - I hope your cramps mean you are about to get your BFP - that would be awesome and I would be so excited for you. Will be thinking of you tomorrow, take care and be strong. Sending you a big