I hope Deb is ok, Trish I second what Spring said if you speak to her tell her we are all thinking of her

I am ok, I don't know why but lately I just seem to have more bad days than good. Admittely most of the people around me wouldn't have a clue cause I act like everything is fine, I see that it makes people feel uncomfortable when I have bad days and so sometimes its easier to just pretend. Everything I see or hear or think makes me teary. I have no idea what is wrong with me, I read a message my sister wrote in Nicholas' guest book yesterday afternoon and went off to have a shower so I could ball my eyes out without anyone knowing. Then last night had a great time (with a couple of drinks included), until my nephew bent down to his 3 month old sister and sang that "I love you" song from Barney (my sister bought Nicholas a Barney toy that sung that song and he was cremated with it, she said so he could always have that song to listen to... for those of you who dont know it goes - I love you, you love me, we're a happy family, with a great big hug and a kiss from me to you, won't you say you love me too) and I had to try so hard to hold back the tears. And then today when I woke up DH was already in the shower, so I balled my eyes out laying in bed and I can't even tell you why! And just the last few days in general have been crappy, Friday was ok but how odd is that considering it is the day I expected to be bad, I think I am in need of a straight jacket!

Spring - Will definitely talk to you when you call, wanna know all about how you are feeling with that little bubba growing inside And you shouldn't have bought a bday pressie, you guys have enough on your plate at the moment, but thank you all the same and its always exciting knowing something is coming

Lynn - Again, still thinking of you and hoping your day is going as well as possible :hugs:

Hi to everyone else.

Mel