Blessedatlast, Hun I am so sorry. What s***y timing all round. I was hoping you would have such good news to stick up the bum of your Cardio dr dude. You are such a brave woman and i know Taite and Seth are with you through every moment this Christmas, so very proud of their mummy. Remind yourself that you are holding those boys and they are holding you. They are right beside you. I know that it is nothing close to what you wish for, to hold a live baby in your arms again, but the boys are there. I am trying not to tell you what to do...what about going to the beach and writing their names in the sand again, holding them in your mind against your heart. I am so sorry if i have said things poorly, out of desperation to help someone, sometimes you just blurt out what you know might help yourself and hope it doesn't hurt the other person. I hope i have not been hurtful. Be gentle and kind with yourself and keep your hope. Another Christmas empty handed is too hard to bear so hold what you have sweet and don't let go. I have no idea how you got through last year christmas but you did and that is inspiration to me. I just have know idea.
Chez, I don't think it will every be easy hun, but that is perfectly ok, just do what you can. FOr me, the pain of not having DD here living this Christmas was too painful, to not do something was too painful, it is so funny the way our minds work.
You know hun, you know your body best...always. I hope your cycle is working itself out. It is pretty common to have a dud ovary...one of mine are. Of absolutely no comfort to know that though, funny that. I think that my body is more or less, one month on one month off. One of mine is so damaged from cysts bursting and removal, it is quite unbalanced lets say.
I hope you enjoy Perth, meant to be lovely over that side...and i hope that brings on Ovulation...! You just never know what the body needs. LOL.
I hope you enjoy that time with Dh and reconnect like you wish. Nothing like a holiday to do that. And the strength you feel is huge when you feel together again on all levels.
My Christmas wish for you, to feel love like never before, to ovulate...and to have your baby Ryan in your arms every night when you go to sleep.
My blessings and love, HM xoxo
Love to you all and hope you are all travelling ok. xx
Last edited by Gigi1; December 21st, 2009 at 10:33 AM.
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