Blessedatlast,
Sweet, I am so sorry you have ahead of you even more challenges to get your head around. It ain't over 'til the fat lady sings but I can understand in a small way what you must be feeling. I hope with all my heart the doctors are wrong and you can go much further on in the preg safe and without harm. All our love x
Well, this is a bit of a xmasy. I found myself a little out of sorts to say the least the other day in the shopping centre. I drove into the car park swearing my head off that i wasn't here shopping for DD but everyone else instead. It was horrible but i had no desire at that moment to buy anything for anyone else if i couldn't buy for her. ANYWAY, was standing in the middle of the supermarket staring, not sure what i needed to get first and what direction i needed to go. The crowd around me didn't bother me but i couldn't hear them, it was a blur. All i could see were all the things i would buy for her. I just wanted to scream at the top of my lungs. I know i have been told that this can happen, this feeling. But i just didn't think it would happen to me, I love christmas with a passion. I feel like it has been ripped from me. So i went home and continued my shopping on the net. Found a great website where everything was cheaper anyway and it will all get here in time. Look up Peters of Kensington if you are looking for things for less.
So the reason for my post...and I will rewrite this in the memorial ideas section too. Christmas gifts for our angels.
We have decided to use and adapt an idea i read about a couple of days ago just after my shopping experience. We will put a stocking up for DD every year at that time of year...month of Dec or close to. Everyday from then until Christmas day we will write on little pieces of paper all the things we want to tell her, learnt from her, felt from her, thought of her, would have bought for her etc and on Christmas day we will open her stocking for her and read out her gifts.
This might help us feel like we are still including her and 'buying' for her at Christmas. As we become stronger, we will include anyone that wants to give her a gift to, family and friends, children. For this Christmas it will just be us.
Oh, that is just making me all teary now. I will make her a stocking this xmas for all her gifts that money can't buy.
Love to you all and hope this helps someone.
Love Hm xoxo
Last edited by Gigi1; December 17th, 2009 at 05:19 PM.
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