Beata70 - I know what you mean about thinking about what should have been. I think your little Joshua is still with you, just not in a way you would prefer him to be. I think he's with you every moment and never far away.

If things were as they should have been , my wee little sprite would have been 9 months old, my Amelia would have been 6 months and the twins Nicholas and Sophie either just born or about to be born. But if the sprite had been ok, Amelia wouldn't ave come along. And if Amelia was ok, then the twins wouldn't have come along. Each of my precious little ones has just been a blessing. I can't choose between my little angels as each one has a special place in my heart.

Just like your Joshua. Just because you're PG now doesn't mean that you should miss your Joshua any less. He's your special little boy and always will be.

Aries - I know what you mean, each and every one of the ladies in here is a simply amazing woman, who all give each other just a little more strength and support when needed. You know you give your fair share of support and strength too, so thanks to you too.