Hi ladies

Samcougar - sorry that AF has visited you as well I haven't heard anything about the side effects of anti-biotics on sperm so I can't answer your question. Maybe try a google search?

Gigi and Beata - thanks for your kind and understanding words. I too hadn't really placed much emphasis on the lead up to this month. I guess it was always in the back of my mind but I didn't think it was playing on my mind until wham I was hit with all of this emotion and I found myself turning into a blubbering mess again. I had always imagined that the anniversary of Ryan's birth would be very hard but hadn't anticipated feeling like this now at all, so I guess it caught me unprepared. Anyway, I seem to be doing ok now. I am trying to keep looking forward and focus on being healthy and strong, and to not be too hard on myself when I do feel down. Some days are just harder to do that sometimes.

Hi to Aries, blessedatlast, Teagz and cmeglles. Hope you are all doing well.

AFM looking forward to the weekend. Lots of preparation to do before we head off to WA for Christmas next weekend. And I have to bake the Christmas cake to take. Fingers crossed that turns out ok - it is my first effort at making a fruit cake.

I hope everyone has a great weekend.
oxo