*hugs* for you prama you poor thing. Talk is good and the fact that you recognise that you may need to chat is good too I do hop eyou can get tot alk to someone soon its always better if its someone else not your mum or huby or friends ans there is no judgment and you feel like you can talk freely.I think you have been amazing in your persistance in feeding lakshman and I dont know that I could have gone on this long in such pain.I know its easy for me to say hun but being un happy about feeding isnt good for etiher of you nad it must me so hard feeling this way each time you feed given its such a big part of the day. Do what you feel is right..I am not sure ifyou are needing someone to just say its ok to ff full time or if you are not at that point yet but I do hope you find some releif. I do hate reading how upset it makes you and I am gllad you can share it with us.I still struggle a bit with the combo feeding and wondering if I am doing the right thing and as trian said I think the guilt will alway sort of remain..but when they are fed happy, growing and sleeping well its all worth it. DO take care ofyou to sweet so that you can enjoyou your gorgeous little boy you realy are doing an amazing job with him.

Danni I am with you on the still bleeding alitle then it goes and starts again ALso on the soreness. Dont know about you but I Seem tohave days when I feel perfectly normal then others when I feel like I cant move and am so very sore. Sounds like all you are doing is really helping jazz must be so frustrating when they are sick .She is a real cutie your girl.
SHell its horiruble watching them with wind pain isnt it its th eonly time WIll gets upset and it makes me want to cry as its like his little heart is broken. We have started to cut bakc ont he grip ewater to just every second feed and to top him up more as I htink he is having a growth spurt HE is feeding both sides for baout 15 mins ( all I have) and then a 120 ml top up every second feed. He sleep smuch better after this. He also pooed twice in two days which was casue for celebration *L*
Hiya to everybody else sorry ran out of time his nibs is ready for a feed. Hope the weekend was good and daylight savings doesnt throw us all out to much.
Bron xx