Prama - Honestly just do what you feel best, and you will know what you want to do deep down. I had the same feelings with DS1 I felt terribly guilty because I knew I didn't want to try and BF anymore, it was too painful and causing me real stress and depression. Like you I dreaded feeding time. But for me once I made the decision to FF I felt a huge weight off my shoulders and I knew then I could get on with being a Mum and not stressing out and living inside my head all the time. It comes back to the old adage "Mum knows best" and they do! IMO you've been feeding bub now for over a month, he's already gotten a decent dose of the 'good stuff', it really is better than having none at all. Huge hugs because I do know how you feel and it is a tough time. I hope you get it sorted out soon.

Gotta run Jake is awake.....will re turn later.....

xxx