Thanks LittleOne. I'm starting to give myself permission to feel what I feel. My DH gets so upset when I cry that I feel guilty for distressing him. But he just holds me til it passes and thats all I need really.

The hospital offered me the u/s pic but I said no - it seemed kinda morbid. Now I wish I had it, just as evidence that my baby was here for a short while. My Mum and DH just looked at me funny when I asked if the hospital would still give it to me. I guess all that matters is that we hold our little ones in our hearts - not much else to do.

God it feels good to know there are people out there who get it!