Oh Kelly, I am so sorry for your loss
Fly free, little one ^-^
I found it extremely hard to cope with the loss of my first baby back in September. It's been over 4 months and I still find myself crying from time to time and whenever I'm at work, I spend at least 1/3 of my time surfing the net about the loss of a child or reading th posts on this website.
Have you thought of TTC'ing again?
There's a great forum called "Trying to Conceive after Loss" - where you can get some great support from the ladies that have been through whatever you have been as well as focus on getting pregnant again. Once you start watching yoru cycle and charting and chatting to other ladies who are doing it as well - it will really help to take yur mind of things and give you a new sense of direction.
Have you also thought of seeing a councellor? I've been very against this idea until a few weeks ago, where it has just been getting "too much", so wil be going to see one tomorrow, hopefully that should help as well - I have gotten some very positive feedbak regarding councelling from other ladies who have suffered a loss.
I also found that creating a memory box for my little angel also helpe me a lot - I have put a few letters that I wrote for him in there, as well as my ultrasound pictures, pregnancy tests, poems, etc... I've come to terms that noone but me is feeling whatever I am feeling and that my little bub is pretty much forgotten - this is why this memory box is so prescious to me.
Hope that helps sweety, feel free to talk to me whenever
xoxoxo