Kelly, I'm so sorry you are going through this. There are no words that can really give you comfort.
I did just want to reiterate what some of the other ladies have mentioned about counselling. I waited four years after my son was born with a servere disability to seek counselling and although I was coping I had so many issues around unresolved grief. It can often be hard to discuss our really deep emotions with those around us so a counsellor can be a wonderful, compassionate listener who will also have some coping techniques that can help if you are finding it hard to get through the day.
Of course you need to give yourself time, you may find you are seeing things in a better light in a week or more but please don't let things go too long if you're suffering.
Take care.