I'm really sorry for your loss.

It's so hard to know what the future will hold, so please don't blame yourself for wanting a natural birth. It's not your fault. Sadly, hindsight is always 20-20, and that can be difficult to deal with after the fact.

For me, my life was endangered by the cascade of interventions. An induction gone bad, a c/s I probably didn't need..... a secondary procedure as a result of a complication during surgery. I guess I am the flip-side. Wondering how it would've been had I avoided all of that. I'm now working on my fear of birth, and looking forward to a safe arrival next June.

I really think c/s has its place, but for me, I'm simply terrified of it for my own personal reasons. This doesn't negate your views however, this just highlights how different our own experiences have been and how different types of trauma shape and mould your reproductive future, and entire life. Thanks for posting this. Whilst I found it confronting, and scary, your points are valid and I'm glad you were brave enough to share.

Once again, I'm so sorry to hear of your loss.