I, like the PP's, think it is no one else's business how you birth your baby and you should make the decision which is right for you and no one else. I did want to offer you some reassurance that a difficult first delivery does not necessarily mean that your subsequent deliveries will be difficult. My DD1 was an obstructed labour with a distressed baby - an extensive episiotomy, failed ventouse and eventual forceps delivery. Hideously traumatic and the physical and mental recovery were difficult. When I birthed DS two years later, I was terrified, expecting the same experience. DS was a straightforward vaginal delivery with no assistance and a minor tear. I had DD2 5 years later and she practically fell out.

After DD1's delivery, I lost faith in my body's ability to birth. I thought that perhaps my body just wasn't made for it, or that I didn't have the mental strength to do it properly.

Whatever you decide, surround yourself with people who support you and ignore the other people.