Oh sweetheart

PLEASE STOP BEATING YOURSELF UP.

You know what, DD2's birth, her lungs didn't clear and she was a VBAC, she was flat and unresponsive for a few minutes. She didn't even get to hold the breast in her mouth (she didn't attempt to suck at all) until she was 4 hours old, didn't get her first real feed until she was 9 hours old hell I didn't get more than 30 mins with her until she was 12 hours old.

I know you are looking at the negs of the Section but believe me ... not all V births go according to plan either. You have a GREAT opportunity knowing that Ziggy will be given the very best start to keep you BOTH healthy thats the truth of it ... its for both your benefit and thats sooo essential.

Will you have any support post section?? It might be a good opportunity to call on friends and family.

Ziggy isn't getting sloppy seconds, nor will Ziggy resent DS, Ziggy will come into this world the safest way possible for you both and mummy will be healthy enough to look after ziggy straight away x

I do understand some of what you are feeling, but you know its what you do after ziggy is born thats important, loving ziggy with every fibre of your being and doing the best you can even if its not how you planned.

Ziggy will be just fine, DS and Ziggy will be best buds (after a while ) and you will be a fantastic mummy. Focus on that sweetness x x

much love x