I am sitting here in bed crying my eyes out yet again, making myself type this and get it out. I cant talk to my family or dp about this, they just dont get it.

I have my beautiful little man asleep in his bassinette and I am truly so thankfull that he is here and well, but I feel like in a way I am mourning my pregnancy.
I let myself be pushed into an induction at 1 day past 40 wks, I had been in pre labour for about 2 wks, no sleep for about 5 days due to painfull contractions coming every 10 mins, I was utterly exhausted and just couldnt argue the point, but how I wish now that I did.

if you have read this thankyou for listening, I just needed to let it out. im sick of pretending that im crying for no reason.
I hear you sweetie. Other people do not get it. It's so hard to find ANYWHERE to talk about it. i've tried CARES and it was more focussed on resolving the first negative labour experience with a positive one, for the next labour. but i'm not having any more kids.

i feel very alone with the traumatic C-section i went thru too.

i totally agree, you MOURN for it.

i do hear you.