Hi Starrysky
You should in no way blame yourself for submitting to a cs. It was not your fault that it happened. You may well have read every single birthing article on this website but you came across some very powerful and persuasive people who may not have had your best interests at heart. It is very easy for these people to persuade you that your baby is in danger. They only need to hint that there may be a problem and that the only way to save your baby is to go for a cs. What mother would not agree to anything they suggested if that mother thought, (or was lead to believe) that the only way to prevent the death of her baby was to do as they say.

Big comfy hugs for you hun