I don't feel ready for him to go to childcare...

[sushee]

I've been on the waiting list at a child care centre that is just across the car park from my office building for over a year now. I wanted Charlie close to me when I returned to work next year. Not only would he get dropped off just before I start work at 8am, abut because DH works in the same building, could pick him up at 4pm. Plus we could see him at lunch time if we wanted to.

The centre has a massive waiting list so thinking I wouldn't get him in, I applied for an FDC spot for Feb next year and got a placement. It's close to where I live but far from work, so Charlie would be in care from 7am to 6pm. 4 days a week, which is an awfully long time.

This morning the centre near work called to say they have a vacancy for Charlie now. I told them I don't start back at work til next year and they said they'd offer it to the next person on the waiting list then. I got upset at this, as I'd been waiting forever, and the director of the centre then suggested I put him in one day a week from now so he would be enrolled in the centre and therefore get first dibs on placements for next year.

I asked if that gauranteed me the times I needed for next year and she said yes, but only if he starts one day a week immediately and I re-enrol him for next year straight away.

So I said yes, okay. I will now meet her on Monday to enrol Charlie to start child care one day a week from Friday.

But...

I'm not ready for him to be away from me!!!!!! *waaaaaaaaaah*!!!!! I thought I had my two more full months with him. I thought I didn't have to do this until January.

I also thought I wouldn't be such a big sook about it when the time came!