Dear Possums, You really are having a bad run of it. I'm so sorry to hear that this cycle hasn't been successful. I understand that life is just going through the motions so you can keep your head above water. Pat yourself on the back for that and if you have to take a mental health day to lie under the doona and sleep - this it the perfect weather for it.

've seen your posts on this website and you do seem so caring to others and very generous with your support. So you have our support now. Be very kind to yourself. Let yourself grieve. But don't let the horrible days win. You are too special to be beaten by this journey. Talk to your FS and ask the hard questions - have them written down before hand and if you don't understand anything, make sure you ask. Are they doing enough for you? Are they monitoring you enough? Are the dosages correct - can they be modified?

DH and I weren't given the best advice and I felt that, I too, was drowning in the big black hole with no way out. We asked the hard questions and our FS just didn't seem to provide the information we needed. We also felt that we were in her too hard basket and bringing the stats down. We actually felt she was trying to move us on. Still feel v. angry toward her. We found a new clinic and I have gone to a new acupuncturist and we are really glad we made the change. But this is just my experience.

Best wishes to you. And all the very best to you and your DH.