Excuse me for having a random vent this morning... I've just debriefed the entire last week or so in hospital in my journal, and it's helped a little, but not enough!

I'm just completely not coping with the idea of Christmas this year. There's also the realisation that our referral to our FS expires on the 14th... and I feel like I've got precisely nowhere! Sure, I've got 7 blasties in the freezer, but I'm not pg, not looking at having a transfer any time soon... And knowing that Christmas is coming, I have no good news, I'll hopefully have a transfer in mid-January before I return to work, but I won't be passed where I was with Caterpillar when we get to Caterpillar's EDD (20th of Feb), and I'm just completely not coping with any of it!

And the mere sight of a babydust/sticky vibes/BFP emote is likely to inspire homicidal tendencies in me today! GRRRRAAAAH!!!!!!

I think I'm at least passing through weepy and getting around to angry... I guess that's progress?

BW