Dear Possums,

I feel exactly the way you do. For me TTC and thinking about it has become an obsession I can't escape, and the fact that other women have so easily what we strive for, long for, sacrifice for, spend hard earned money on, compromise our bodies for, is just not fair.

I am so angry that this, the most special thing a couple can do together, that should be filled with excitement and anticipation and love, has been taken away from me. The joy has been stolen from me, for what should be the most amazing experience in my life, of conceiving and creating a child.

I try to tell myself endlessly that this experience has changed my life, made me a better, stronger person who is more in touch with my body, my spirituality, my faith, enhanced my relationship with my husband, and will make me a more appreciative, loving mother when my turn comes.

But really I just wish this didn't have to happen to me and I cry to God 'why me' and 'it's not fair'. I just sucks.

But, what does keep me going sometimes is reading back over the past posts of all the lovely ladies in the Pregnancy after LTTTC threads. They have gone through the same heart wrenching grief and despair and they have succeeded. So I tell myself, and you and everyone else in the same position. ONLY A LITTLE LONGER. WE WILL GET OUR WISH, AND THIS WILL ONE DAY BE JUST A DREAM.

That is my hope, with all my heart, and what keeps me going. Hugs, xx