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Anger can be so consuming can't it. I used to be overcome with it at times (and still sometimes am), and at people I loved just because they had what I couldn't seem to get. Then guilt would kick in too .

I have spent many sessions with a counsellor to help me realise that anger is a very real part of grieving and what we are doing when LTTTC is grieving. It is so hard to grieve in society and have them understand and be supportive, when they can't see what you are grieving. We are grieving so many things when LTTTC. Eg, lost opportunities, lost experiences, lost chances, lost years with a child, loss in confidence, loss of what it is to be a woman and procreate. Anger is a real emotion. My counsellor has helped me understand that it is ok to feel these emotions but that I have control on what I do with them, that is control over where my thoughts go.

We are told from early on in life that if we want something enough and work hard at it, we should be able to achieve our goals. But with LTTTC you can hit barriers that seem insurmountable and no matter what you throw at it, seems to not shift, fall down or open up.

I feel that we can learn much from it and that it helps to never take things for granted and to appreciate all that we do have in life, rather than focus on what we don't have.

I don't know if this is much help, but they are some things I have learned from this journey.


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