Sweetie the answer is yes I find it hard to cope. More so when I was using my own eggs than now though, as I decided back then I had done enough grieving about my own fertility and I had to move on in order to keep going with IVF and have a happier life. You and I have talked before about grieving and that it can be long and hard. I am glad you can share your pain and fears here and I hope it helps so you can build your resilience to cope with such a tough journey.
Have I ever mentioned to you the book by Stephanie Dowrick "Choosing Happiness"? A sort of bible/reference book for me