Right now I am finding it extremely difficult to cope. I learned yesterday that my HCG levels have stopped falling (they need to get back to 0) and that this may mean that despite a clear Ultrasound done by the specialized ultra sound place I amy still be retaining "product" and thus still need a D&C. I am fine with having another D&C at this point - I need this behind me mentally and physically. BUT they won't do it unless they see something on an ultrasound.
My FS said what is going on with me is very unusual - to have a clean U/S and to have stopped bleeding (finally) but to have somewhat high hcg evels that have stopped dropping. She mentioned investigating whether this is an ectopic! But I know the U/S dr looked for this - could they miss a 5 week miscarried ectopic?
I am not sleeping - am always on the verge of tears - and am picking fights with DH (only some of which are justified IMO - he needs to stop telling me to just relax and wait and see). I can't take this wait any more and am so afraid that there will be damage that will further interfere with out ttc. Makes me want to give up and say a baby just isn't meant to be for us. Which makes me so sad I'm crying while I type.