Thanks Rach- I feel all those things you described. My SIL is pregnant right now and others around me have fallen pregnant so easily. I find it so hard to see women with little babies...or breastfeeding etc. I feel like crying and angry all at once.
And yep, ripped off, devastated, resentful, angry, frsutrated.... so glad to know I am not alone in walking this range of emotions, even though I am sad anyone else has to suffer through it.

I also don't really enjoy my job...and not having an 'end date' once again is tough.

hope you get a BFP by christmas.