Oh Emma - it's such a terrible feeling isn't it? The despair and misery is just overwhelming.

You will never forget, but time does make it easier.

How do I keep going..?? Well it is something I have wanted since I was 13yrs old and am not giving up until my ovaries literally shrivel up or until the FS refuses to go further.

As hard as it mentally (and it is soooo hard) I just have to keep going. I guess each new cycle brings just a little hope into my life.

Like you said, you do need time to grieve and I hope after a little time has passed, you too will find the strength to keep going until you get your dream.