Geez Bec, you are having such a rough trot, you really are I know I had a couple of wobbly moments when I was forgotten my first cycle, it is hard because you have to have utter faith in these people. You are trusting them with something that has an enormous affect on yourself and Murray. When you go to hassle to get there, it is utterly devastating and it feels far worse than it should, because it all piles up. Thinking of you, my dear friend.