Em, vent all you like.....thats what us girlies are here for to give each support when needed....i wish i was down there to help you, give you that extra pair of hands and that well needed shoulder to lean on and cry if need be.....hope all goes well with the heart......i know all about that with my eldest son, as he has tachycardia......just rest up as much as you can when you can because soon you are going to need all the strength you can muster having this little buddle of joy.....cheers kiya