becc,

Yes we are 2 hours behind you.

Same plan hey - interesting. I guess that there is not much more than that, that they can do. Other than having an ultrasound machine and technican installed in our homes! I think if they did that though i would be on it 24/7 for the 9 months!

Ok so you said that you are not sure if you can go back to your OB. That is totally understandable. I get the feeling you think that he should have handled things better?? Im sorry if you feel that way - that must be very hard to deal with.

Thanks for the encouragment about a full term health baby not being too far away. I honestly belive that things will go our way next time - surely this couldnt happen again......and i have to cling onto that because i am fully aware that i wont always feel so postive during the pregnancy.

I had a huge cry over the poems and everything aswell. Im sure all of us did. I am totally bummed though because i forgot to bring the two that i have in too post. Well i will do that tomorrow.

I have to totally (and whole heartedly) agree with what you said - I have to admit though, that as much as I want to let go of the sadness and move on, sometimes I find it hard to because I feel like if I let go of the sadness I'm letting go of Georgia IYKWIM? I feel exactly the same about Katelyn - i want to move on and be happy because i know that is what she would want. But i also cant let go of the sadness that i feel for her. I guess it may always be that way. I am searching for away to be at peace with this. Meaning that i can accept that i will always miss and love her but in a way that i can enjoy remembering her without the intense pain. I guess that this may come in a few years......only time will tell as they say. I once said that i didnt want Katelyn to become my past that i always wanted her to stay my present. I think now that she will always remain my present because she will always be with me. She is a part of me and that will never change.

This is just so hard isnt it. Trying to find a balance of how to mourn our little ones and also try to be happy for us, our partners and our friends and family.

Well talk later.

Sarah