Sarah, Tootie, Angel, Meg,

Thanks so much for replying to my post.... it's been great to know that I'm not alone in all this, and that my feelings aren't unnatural.

After my m/c in Aug last year our OB did a whole bunch of tests, including a chromosome test for genetic incompatability, and every single test he did the results came back normal. That was one of the hardest things... the fact that I kept losing babies and no one could tell us why it was happening.

All he has suggested is for us to have a bit of a break, which we are, and to keep trying.
I'm so up and down at the moment. Some days my frame of mind is that we'll just keep trying as long as it takes and we will have the baby we want so desperatly, and other days I just dissolve into a heap of tears and am convinced that I'll never get to experience my baby's first movements, first smiles, first day at school... and it leaves me feeling so empty and worthless.

I have a battle with depression at the best of times, and occasionally I really have to fight to keep my will to even exist in a world where such painful things can happen to so many people.

As you might have noticed, I have a tendancy to ramble a lot.... but I really just wanted to thank you. It's nice to see that there are people out there who are willing to extend a thought to someone they don't even know.

I hope to get to know you all a bit better..... if you can put up with my epic posts O